1 of to 1 in

So, life tends to be a roller coaster. Mine tends to involve a roller coaster of emotions. Most days I am hapy just being the awesome that is me. :) Everynow and then,the lonely catches up and hangs around for a few days. :P
Hobby Lobby almost made me cry today. I decided to look at home decor/wall hanging stuffs. Reading all the family makes a home, love is all that matters, etc did a number of my delicate emotional state.
And what's odd isbecause prior to going in, I had been thinking about how I am tired of being 1 of millions. I really want to be that 1 in a million to someone.

I know that person is out there somewhere. I am just impatient. I miss the conversation, being able o just be wrapped in someones arms, miss feeling important to someone.

neglected

This blog has been neglected. I started a new position at wok and it has been busy busy busy.

I also don't have internet or cable at home, which makes it hard to post.
Things are good. Dating sucks, but I'm happy just being me. :)

The changes keep happening!

If you change one thing, it can lead to a landslide of other changes. I will be starting a new job July 1. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I'm excited for the challenges and the new responsibilities and all that the new position will entail. I'm nervous because it is doing completely different things than what I am currently doing.
EEK!

Next:

I am officially in the next chapter of my life.
After a 2.5 hour wait at the courthouse, followed by a 5 minute meeting with a judge, I'm officially a single woman again.
Am I sad by this? Slightly. But I have experience a lost happiness the past months, and I have missed that. I missed the slightly goofy, ever smiling, me that I am.

So I'm looking forward to what the future holds for me.
I had a discussion with a cousin last night that put a lot of perspective to my life and goals.
Can you believe I've never had a huge desire to be "insert occupation here"?
I have the mental capacity and drive to be whatever I want. I just don't have the desire to be a corporate ladder climber.
I'm actually really content being a mom and wife and a massage therapist.
I like to learn new things, but not necessarily because I want to apply it to anything other than my own personal knowledge.
I have hobbies, I have things I like to do, but honestly, I'd rather be able to spend time with the girl and take her to do fun and interesting things. I want to teach her to be compassionate (which, I do, the girl has a heart the size of Texas made of gold). I want her to experience different things, not be limited in her interests.
Heck, I love the fact that I took Intro to Auto in high school and can take apart a lawnmower engine and put it back together, I can change my own oil, and I can change a tire.
That doesn't mean I don't like to go get my hair and nails done though.
I like being diversified. I want Kaitlin to be able to have that diversity as well.

And this post really just turned into a brain dump....but that's alright. Because that is who I am.
I am completely random.
I love being around other people.
I love being challenged.
I am fun. I am loyal. I am me. :D

Time for Me

I have a weakness for getting wrapped up in people and tend to forget to take care of me.
I'm glad God decided to give me a big shove this past weekend.
I feel more at peace with my current situations. I'm planning on doing a couple things and they are making me excited. I'm looking forward to using my God-given talents.
Things aren't always going to be easy.
There will be times I doubt myself and my abilities.
I just have to remember, everything happens for a reason, I need to listen to God and not do what I want, things work out in the end, if it hasn't worked out, it isn't the end.

So, here's to a rededication to me, to putting the focus on me and making me a better person, to working towards MY DREAMS and not putting life on hold for anyone. :D

Last Day of First Grade

Today is the girl's last FULL day of First Grade!
Who stole my baby and replaced her with this growing girl??!!
I love her oh so very much and enjoy being her mom and being able to see her grow.
She makes me giggle, makes me scream, makes me smile.

I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

So as of tomorrow around 9 am, I will be the mom of a second grader.

Exercise Regime and Healthful Eating

Me and the girl are in a good groove right now. I'm in super healthy mode, and her little body LOVES to eat healthy, yummy things!
She's had wraps for lunch the past two days.
I had hummus and crackers and an apple.

I don't think I'll be buying chips anymore.
And probably won't be buying much in the JUNK category.
This means trying new vegetables and things for me, as I'm very picky about what I will and won't eat.
I'm enjoying this shift and am hoping we can stick with it.

I've also started an exercise regime as part of Operation Get Skinny.
Since moving out, I've lost over 20 lbs. I'm officially under my danger weight. But that isn't enough for me. I love the change (other than not having clothes that fit properly) and relish the fact I'm down a size. My goal is to get down 2 more sizes and drop another 30 lbs or so. I don't own a scale (partially on purpose), so the size goal is the more important one.
My regime includes lunch hour running, "running" on the gazelle at night, using my yoga ball, actually doing yoga, and making sure to stretch and work on my flexibility as well.