This morning at o'dark thirty, wrapped up my second week of CrossFit classes. The local gym is having a competition with a year's membership as the prize.
Incentive + Need = Action
The past two years, my focus has been on mental health. My father's death shook my foundation very hard. It put me into an evil cycle with depression and anxiety as my constant companions. I was the most mom I could be. I gave my kids what I could while shrouded in my rain cloud.
It sucked. I knew I had to do something. I did counseling. I found crystal therapy. I was better...but not 100%. My physical health went to the wayside. During my bout with all of the crud, I used food (sweets especially) as my crutch. A certain brand of clothes removed the built in "uh oh" checks. Stretchy clothes mean you don't have as much accountability to your wardrobe.
The numbers on the scale steadily climbed.
Insert seeing the challenge online. Insert a bank account that had the extra $$. Insert taking the signs from the universe that it was time. So I went.
At 5 o'clock in the morning. A time I try really hard to pretend doesn't exist.
I didn't die.
I did the WOD. (Workout of the Day)
I put my health higher on the list.
And a crazy thing started to happen. I started finding myself again.
The old me. My brain started to focus forward. My posture improved. My mood improved.
My confidence returned.
Today, for the first time in awhile, I am wearing a dress and heels. A level of outfit that I haven't put together in too long.
I feel great.
I feel confident.
I feel the shackles of depression, anxiety, and grief didn't pick me today.
And that is worth all the money in the world. To shed the weight of grief and focus on the sun rather than the forecasted rain.
All of this boils down to:
Find what works for you.
Be kind to yourself.
Don't give up on the bad days.
Sunshine will return.
Friday, August 17, 2018
Saturday, August 11, 2018
Soul lessons, Ascended thinking problems, Past life stuff
Today is one of those AH HA! days for me. I LOVE IT! Some of the simplest lessons are the hardest to fully learn.
Lesson: Life can neither be all work or all play. Fantasy and practicality can co-exist and SHOULD!
The details: (I almost put "The deets" but didn't, but then I just did. Ah the irony!)
As I was preparing for my morning cleanse (aka shower), I had one of those moments where all of the pieces clicked together. I was thinking about all of the trial and tribulations that I have been through in my life and how they have helped me grow into a better person, more of a person. When I remembered an experience I had recently (like past 3 months) during a meditation where my goal was to access past life messages I needed to see/hear in order to help myself on this current journey.
The messages/glimpses I saw were vastly different. In one, a young girl with long, wavy, black hair stood on the edge of a cliff, with a raging sea below, arms outstretched, twirling in circles. It was a moment of pure freedom and abandon. In the other, a middle aged woman, sat toiling away to serve an unseen master. A woman who worked hard to exist, not live, in a very hard life. While this vision didn't have an overture of abuse, it did have a darker feel to it as the person depicted didn't have many joys in life. The person had a roof over their head. She had food in her stomach. But she also had the weight of the world shackled to her that prevented her from moving on, moving forward.
So, this morning the message finally came together. For me to REALLY LIVE this life, I can be neither carefree or over caring. I have to have both work AND play in my life. I need to buckle down and get things done AND I need to take moments to do things that aren't always practical. I need to let the girl on the edge of the cliff dance. I need to let the servant work. I need that BALANCE.
Another side of this revelation:
Earlier this week, I started on a CrossFit journey (more of that story will come in the future of this blog). My first day of this exercise journey, I was hit by an intense migraine of epic proportions. It was one of the worst I have had.
Now, that I have had my "ah ha!" moment, I understand that the physical exercise triggered another ascension in thinking. One that went very rapidly and my physical body couldn't keep up with so it shut down quickly.
I share this because on this journey of higher understanding I'm on, I'm frequently burdened with headaches and "baby" migraines. It is the physical manifestation of energetic work for me. I really feel that all of the work I've been doing on myself is coming together quite well even with the hiccups and headaches that come with it.
So, as you continue on your journey, don't let the hurdles and speed bumps slow you down.
Soul lesson learned. Now, I need to live that lesson.
I also feel I need to include this side note. Previously, I have never thought of past life stuff. Through the work I have done and read into, I decided that I should do a meditation where the focus/goal was to access soul lessons I needed to master to continue on my current journey. My current thoughts on past life stuff can be watered down to this:
Certain interpretations of the bible state we don't enter heaven until Jesus comes back to earth.
Energy always exists, it is merely transferred.
Insert life cycle process where we turn into dirt and grass and nutrients.
So, parts of our energy have links to different portions of history through the life cycle process. Parts of us existed in a human form previously. That transfer of energy or lessons creates the person I am today.
MIND BLOWN. I surprise myself sometimes with how things fit together so nicely for me in this existence of Evolution + Creationism that I have. One of my go to quotes is "One day to us does not equal one day to God."
Lesson: Life can neither be all work or all play. Fantasy and practicality can co-exist and SHOULD!
The details: (I almost put "The deets" but didn't, but then I just did. Ah the irony!)
As I was preparing for my morning cleanse (aka shower), I had one of those moments where all of the pieces clicked together. I was thinking about all of the trial and tribulations that I have been through in my life and how they have helped me grow into a better person, more of a person. When I remembered an experience I had recently (like past 3 months) during a meditation where my goal was to access past life messages I needed to see/hear in order to help myself on this current journey.
The messages/glimpses I saw were vastly different. In one, a young girl with long, wavy, black hair stood on the edge of a cliff, with a raging sea below, arms outstretched, twirling in circles. It was a moment of pure freedom and abandon. In the other, a middle aged woman, sat toiling away to serve an unseen master. A woman who worked hard to exist, not live, in a very hard life. While this vision didn't have an overture of abuse, it did have a darker feel to it as the person depicted didn't have many joys in life. The person had a roof over their head. She had food in her stomach. But she also had the weight of the world shackled to her that prevented her from moving on, moving forward.
So, this morning the message finally came together. For me to REALLY LIVE this life, I can be neither carefree or over caring. I have to have both work AND play in my life. I need to buckle down and get things done AND I need to take moments to do things that aren't always practical. I need to let the girl on the edge of the cliff dance. I need to let the servant work. I need that BALANCE.
Another side of this revelation:
Earlier this week, I started on a CrossFit journey (more of that story will come in the future of this blog). My first day of this exercise journey, I was hit by an intense migraine of epic proportions. It was one of the worst I have had.
Now, that I have had my "ah ha!" moment, I understand that the physical exercise triggered another ascension in thinking. One that went very rapidly and my physical body couldn't keep up with so it shut down quickly.
I share this because on this journey of higher understanding I'm on, I'm frequently burdened with headaches and "baby" migraines. It is the physical manifestation of energetic work for me. I really feel that all of the work I've been doing on myself is coming together quite well even with the hiccups and headaches that come with it.
So, as you continue on your journey, don't let the hurdles and speed bumps slow you down.
Soul lesson learned. Now, I need to live that lesson.
I also feel I need to include this side note. Previously, I have never thought of past life stuff. Through the work I have done and read into, I decided that I should do a meditation where the focus/goal was to access soul lessons I needed to master to continue on my current journey. My current thoughts on past life stuff can be watered down to this:
Certain interpretations of the bible state we don't enter heaven until Jesus comes back to earth.
Energy always exists, it is merely transferred.
Insert life cycle process where we turn into dirt and grass and nutrients.
So, parts of our energy have links to different portions of history through the life cycle process. Parts of us existed in a human form previously. That transfer of energy or lessons creates the person I am today.
MIND BLOWN. I surprise myself sometimes with how things fit together so nicely for me in this existence of Evolution + Creationism that I have. One of my go to quotes is "One day to us does not equal one day to God."
Friday, July 13, 2018
New Moon, New Things, Expanded Vision
Depending on where you are located, last night was the new moon!
I used this point in the lunar cycle to try something new. I actually set up a grid-ish thing with some new moon affirmations/goals.
I'm going to share them to the best of my ability with words as loading pictures is not something I'm prepared to do at the moment. (AKA: I'm being lazy.)
I used the word "grid-ish" because I honestly just put four crystals in a cardinal direction with a fifth in the middle (that was a point/generator). Under the point/generator, I placed my sticky note with my affirmations/goals. I'm going to share those, along with my reasons for the selected crystals, for the sake of giving even more power to my written word.
GOALS:
To have a prosperous healing business.
To be open to communication.
To be confident in knowing my worth and skill.
Rather broad focused, but I'm not wanting to limit the power of the universe. All of these are subject to interpretation in a number of ways. My focus is to continue to grow as a person, to shed some of the things holding me back (fear and perception), and to let my light shine.
Crystals used and their position:
CITRINE: This was in the middle. This is my point/generator. This was selected as it is a prosperity stone. The focus for me is to be prosperous in all aspects of my life. To me, this also hones in on the fact I'm not out searching for wealth. Honestly, I want my business to support itself and to provide additional funds for activities (and to buy more crystals and books).
ARAGONITE (Sputnik): This was placed North. To guide me on my quest for self-acceptance and confidence. To remind me that I'm an amazing person. That I am a worthwhile person. That people seek me for my personality in addition to my skills.
ANGELITE: This was placed East. This was selected to continue to help me grow spiritually and to listen for the guidance of angels and higher beings.
HEMIMORPHITE: This was placed South. This was selected (I think) for communication, spiritual growth, and chakra related "business". To be honest, my muse is leaving rather rapidly and I don't have all of my resources with me at home.
APOPHYLLITE: This was placed West. This was selected to grow my healing business and to provide effective care for those who cross my path and doorstep.
Many of the crystals I selected had dual roles in my intentions for the grid-ish thing. Now, comes the hard part- focusing my energy on reaching these goals. I have peace of mind knowing I can accomplish anything, but I know it isn't going to come without putting some labor of love into it.
Which leads into the last part of the title, Expanded Vision.
My goal for the next two weeks leading up to the full moon is to start gathering resources on wholesalers to expand my business. My "Assumed Name" paperwork has to be posted in 1 more week of the local newspaper and then I have to start on all the official state paperwork.
I'm pumped to start expanding my healing business. To be a source for health and wellness supplies and services.
I'm also reminding myself to take care of me. There is only one me and there is not a replacement warranty available in life. You are irreplaceable. You have meaning in this world we live in. Find your light, let it shine. Be unapologetically you.You are an amazing being of light.
I used this point in the lunar cycle to try something new. I actually set up a grid-ish thing with some new moon affirmations/goals.
I'm going to share them to the best of my ability with words as loading pictures is not something I'm prepared to do at the moment. (AKA: I'm being lazy.)
I used the word "grid-ish" because I honestly just put four crystals in a cardinal direction with a fifth in the middle (that was a point/generator). Under the point/generator, I placed my sticky note with my affirmations/goals. I'm going to share those, along with my reasons for the selected crystals, for the sake of giving even more power to my written word.
GOALS:
To have a prosperous healing business.
To be open to communication.
To be confident in knowing my worth and skill.
Rather broad focused, but I'm not wanting to limit the power of the universe. All of these are subject to interpretation in a number of ways. My focus is to continue to grow as a person, to shed some of the things holding me back (fear and perception), and to let my light shine.
Crystals used and their position:
CITRINE: This was in the middle. This is my point/generator. This was selected as it is a prosperity stone. The focus for me is to be prosperous in all aspects of my life. To me, this also hones in on the fact I'm not out searching for wealth. Honestly, I want my business to support itself and to provide additional funds for activities (and to buy more crystals and books).
ARAGONITE (Sputnik): This was placed North. To guide me on my quest for self-acceptance and confidence. To remind me that I'm an amazing person. That I am a worthwhile person. That people seek me for my personality in addition to my skills.
ANGELITE: This was placed East. This was selected to continue to help me grow spiritually and to listen for the guidance of angels and higher beings.
HEMIMORPHITE: This was placed South. This was selected (I think) for communication, spiritual growth, and chakra related "business". To be honest, my muse is leaving rather rapidly and I don't have all of my resources with me at home.
APOPHYLLITE: This was placed West. This was selected to grow my healing business and to provide effective care for those who cross my path and doorstep.
Many of the crystals I selected had dual roles in my intentions for the grid-ish thing. Now, comes the hard part- focusing my energy on reaching these goals. I have peace of mind knowing I can accomplish anything, but I know it isn't going to come without putting some labor of love into it.
Which leads into the last part of the title, Expanded Vision.
My goal for the next two weeks leading up to the full moon is to start gathering resources on wholesalers to expand my business. My "Assumed Name" paperwork has to be posted in 1 more week of the local newspaper and then I have to start on all the official state paperwork.
I'm pumped to start expanding my healing business. To be a source for health and wellness supplies and services.
I'm also reminding myself to take care of me. There is only one me and there is not a replacement warranty available in life. You are irreplaceable. You have meaning in this world we live in. Find your light, let it shine. Be unapologetically you.You are an amazing being of light.
Tuesday, July 3, 2018
Adaptability in a changing world
Have the ability to adapt to the world around you is a difficult skill to manage, especially for a goal/detail oriented Capricorn like myself. I find the older I get, the more useful this skill is. Let me expand on this topic as it pertains to me. (BONUS: My writing partner today will have a snippet at the end discussing her properties. SPOILER: My writing partner today is a square carnelian.)
So much of my younger years were spent trying to make things happen my way. As life continued to throw hurdles in my path, I was forced to slow down. To re-evaluate my game plan and adjust it as needed.
Hurdles are just obstacles that you have to maneuver. Sometimes you trip, sometimes you soar, sometimes your steps get jacked along the way, but mainly your goal is to just cross the finish line.
These days, I can't get my rear over a hurdle. I still know the fundamental skills and try to pass them on to younger generations when I get the opportunity. I have adapted to my aging body and the knowledge (well fear, really) that I would injure myself if I attempted to jump them.
So I had to learn to adapt. In track you can't walk around hurdles, you have to go over them. In life, you have lots of options. Instead of trying to force things to happen my way, I have attempted (I'm calling it an attempt because I'm not always successful) to have a more laissez faire attitude with things not going my way. By no means am I throwing in the towel, I'm just letting God take the wheel and redirect my path as needed. Missed opportunities, plans falling apart, schedules not aligning are just hurdles that are in my way to keep me safe and on the right track.
I've learned that adapting to the changes around me rather than trying to force things to stay the same or to stay where I am comfortable, normally leads to a new destination that includes learning opportunities along the journey. Trying new things and new ways has helped me not stress over change (as much).
Stagnant is when things begin to rot or smell funny to me. Even an inch forward is still movement.
Not a great ending, but my train of thought has left the station in a way, plus my writing partner wants their time in the spotlight as well.
CARNELIAN:
Motivator often used for focus realization and self-actualization. (From It's Raining Zen Stone Uses handout)
*Influence in the above article: I realized that fear is what is holding me back from a lot of stuff. Maybe I should try to jump some hurdles.
Also a stone to boost creativity.
*Influence in the above article: Well, this non-writer keeps writing....So I think it is pretty self-explanatory on how it influenced me.
Many thanks and blessings for following along on this journey.
-Erin
So much of my younger years were spent trying to make things happen my way. As life continued to throw hurdles in my path, I was forced to slow down. To re-evaluate my game plan and adjust it as needed.
Hurdles are just obstacles that you have to maneuver. Sometimes you trip, sometimes you soar, sometimes your steps get jacked along the way, but mainly your goal is to just cross the finish line.
These days, I can't get my rear over a hurdle. I still know the fundamental skills and try to pass them on to younger generations when I get the opportunity. I have adapted to my aging body and the knowledge (well fear, really) that I would injure myself if I attempted to jump them.
So I had to learn to adapt. In track you can't walk around hurdles, you have to go over them. In life, you have lots of options. Instead of trying to force things to happen my way, I have attempted (I'm calling it an attempt because I'm not always successful) to have a more laissez faire attitude with things not going my way. By no means am I throwing in the towel, I'm just letting God take the wheel and redirect my path as needed. Missed opportunities, plans falling apart, schedules not aligning are just hurdles that are in my way to keep me safe and on the right track.
I've learned that adapting to the changes around me rather than trying to force things to stay the same or to stay where I am comfortable, normally leads to a new destination that includes learning opportunities along the journey. Trying new things and new ways has helped me not stress over change (as much).
Stagnant is when things begin to rot or smell funny to me. Even an inch forward is still movement.
Not a great ending, but my train of thought has left the station in a way, plus my writing partner wants their time in the spotlight as well.
CARNELIAN:
Motivator often used for focus realization and self-actualization. (From It's Raining Zen Stone Uses handout)
*Influence in the above article: I realized that fear is what is holding me back from a lot of stuff. Maybe I should try to jump some hurdles.
Also a stone to boost creativity.
*Influence in the above article: Well, this non-writer keeps writing....So I think it is pretty self-explanatory on how it influenced me.
Many thanks and blessings for following along on this journey.
-Erin
Thursday, June 21, 2018
Finding Your Tribe
Tonight, while in bed and reflecting on the days events, it really hit me that I have found members of my tribe. No, it isn't some special club, just a special connection with specific people.
It is my experience, that you will meet people you just click with. People who you feel absolutely comfortable around and have no issues exposing those "quirks" you have.
I have a lot of quirks.
One of my quirks is anxiety that tends to make me withdraw from people before I get the chance to really know them.
So, when I find tribe members that I can get past my anxiety with and truly let ME shine, I embrace those people and those relationships.
Tonight, I did something for me. I have been feeling the pull to dance/be creative lately. I had a unique opportunity as a client reminded me earlier this week of Sauna Tap happening at one of the local dance studios. I am so glad that I went tonight. It felt good to move. It felt good to connect my energy to my creative side. It just so happens the class is taught by a beautiful soul that I consider part of my tribe.
The almost comical part of tonight was that the class tonight had a relaxation aspect to it, not just cardio.
SO, I got to do a guided meditation as part of the class too.
I'm getting sidetracked, but not too far. The point is, you can find members of your tribe anywhere you go. Sometimes the most chance encounter can lead to some of the most beautiful relationships.
Sometimes the members of your tribe are only meant to pop in for a short time. Others, they pop in and end up sticking with you through longer than you could imagine.
I have a group of "internet friends" I met over 10 years ago when planning my wedding (to my ex-husband). I have met some of them in person, some I have never met. But, we have stuck together and gone through life together. During our journey, there have been times I don't know what I would have done without them. They helped support me during some of the hardest moments of my life. They have laughed with me over the crazy antics of my kids. They have celebrated the small victories.
I have friends from high school that I don't see frequently. Lord help you if you are around when we get together though. We tend to be a loud bunch and we talk and laugh a lot.
I have a great friend that I met in school for massage therapy. A chance encounter that brought another member to my tribe.
Chances are, you have more tribe members than you really realize.
As I approach the 2nd anniversary of my father's death, I appreciate these relationships even more. Tell people you love and appreciate them. Sometimes they don't realize the impact a small action may have.
Thanks for reading. Thanks for following along of this journey.
Love and light to you on this summer solstice.
It is my experience, that you will meet people you just click with. People who you feel absolutely comfortable around and have no issues exposing those "quirks" you have.
I have a lot of quirks.
One of my quirks is anxiety that tends to make me withdraw from people before I get the chance to really know them.
So, when I find tribe members that I can get past my anxiety with and truly let ME shine, I embrace those people and those relationships.
Tonight, I did something for me. I have been feeling the pull to dance/be creative lately. I had a unique opportunity as a client reminded me earlier this week of Sauna Tap happening at one of the local dance studios. I am so glad that I went tonight. It felt good to move. It felt good to connect my energy to my creative side. It just so happens the class is taught by a beautiful soul that I consider part of my tribe.
The almost comical part of tonight was that the class tonight had a relaxation aspect to it, not just cardio.
SO, I got to do a guided meditation as part of the class too.
I'm getting sidetracked, but not too far. The point is, you can find members of your tribe anywhere you go. Sometimes the most chance encounter can lead to some of the most beautiful relationships.
Sometimes the members of your tribe are only meant to pop in for a short time. Others, they pop in and end up sticking with you through longer than you could imagine.
I have a group of "internet friends" I met over 10 years ago when planning my wedding (to my ex-husband). I have met some of them in person, some I have never met. But, we have stuck together and gone through life together. During our journey, there have been times I don't know what I would have done without them. They helped support me during some of the hardest moments of my life. They have laughed with me over the crazy antics of my kids. They have celebrated the small victories.
I have friends from high school that I don't see frequently. Lord help you if you are around when we get together though. We tend to be a loud bunch and we talk and laugh a lot.
I have a great friend that I met in school for massage therapy. A chance encounter that brought another member to my tribe.
Chances are, you have more tribe members than you really realize.
As I approach the 2nd anniversary of my father's death, I appreciate these relationships even more. Tell people you love and appreciate them. Sometimes they don't realize the impact a small action may have.
Thanks for reading. Thanks for following along of this journey.
Love and light to you on this summer solstice.
Monday, June 11, 2018
Finding the Message in Everyday
The Lord works in
mysterious ways.
Most mornings, I can be
found driving my oldest to Driver's Ed (hush, I don't want to talk about it.).
If you've ever been in the car with us, music is a constant. Heck, music is a
constant in my life period.
Music also brings about
some of the strongest emotions for me. I like when I can sing along, so I am
constantly switching stations.
But, let us talk about
this morning with a brief mention of yesterday's sermon. Yesterday's sermon was
all about living a Christ-centered life, not just a Christian life. Today,
during my drive back to my office, I heard Rascal Flatts "Love You Out
Loud" and MAN did the lyrics hit me in the feels.
All the GOOD feels. The
feels that remind me God has put me here for HIS PURPOSE.
Lately, I have been
feeling a call to something bigger than me. I'm still not sure what the end
result is, but when I have these moments of "Ah Ha!", I'm not
ignoring them. So let us break down some of this song as it pertains to the
message I heard and what I feel I need to share.
I have always been a little shy
I've always been the quiet type till now
And I never let my feelings show
I never let
anybody know
Just how much I was so deep in love
I am not
know for being extremely vocal about my faith. I tend to try to not stand out
as I have anxiety that is fueled partially by social situations. I live in fear
at times that people don't like me, that I'm saying stupid things, that in
general I don't measure up to some invisible bar. I have been working SO
HARD lately on quieting that voice, of accepting MYSELF as I AM. God made me
this way for a reason. I recently started attending a new church for
convenience reasons. It is less than 5 miles from my house, the service times
work for my schedule, and the music speaks to me. I find myself wanting to
raise my hands in worship to His holy name because I am not worthy of the love
and sacrifice that was made for a poor sinner like me. But MAN, is it amazing
how loving and forgiving our Lord is.
You keep bringing out the free in me
What you do to my heart just makes me melt
And I don't think I can resist
I am finding a new freedom as I embrace my faith more and more. By
keeping the focus on God, I have been able to leave behind some of the luggage
that weighs me down on a day to day. Experiencing God's love and opening my
heart to the fullness that I have found there is awe-inspiring. So often, I
have found that I try to resist what God is trying to do in my life. It is in
the moments that I give up the driver's seat where I am able to find peace. I'm
tired of fighting a fight that is USELESS. One of my daily prayers has been for
God to help me make the right decisions to stay and/or find the path HE wants
me on. Not the path I'm trying to forge for myself. By giving up this fight,
while I know it won't always be easy, it will definitely be more rewarding and
peaceful.
I'm gonna stand on a rooftop, climb up a mountaintop
Baby, scream and shout
I wanna sing it on the radio, show it on a video
Baby, leave no doubt
I want the whole world to know just what I'm
all about
I love to love you out loud
Which leads us to where the message rang SOO LOUD for me. A message in
everyday life. A country song that isn't new. I do want to scream and shout my
love for Jesus. My gratitude and thankfulness for a life that is full of love
and wonderment. I want to love God out loud and share His holy name and his
good works.
So that is what I'm doing this morning with this post. A piece of
Internet history.
Thank you Lord for putting me on this earth, for
blessing me beyond my wildest imagination with a love that knows no bounds.
Thank you for leading me to do Your work. Thanks for loving an imperfect me and
allowing me to know that I am perfectly made in Your eyes.
Friday, June 8, 2018
Not My Day
The past 36 hours have been rough. I'm not going to lie. I've been cranky and crabby. I left my "zen" attitude somewhere and had a hard time finding where I left it.
People have been making me angry.
Do you find yourself in a similar situation?
Everything is trucking right along, you feel the wind might be in your sail, the road smoothed out in front of you, and then BAM! Pothole. Turbulent seas.
In these moments it is SO easy to let Satan win. To forget about all of the good in the world around you. To forget that you have the ultimate champion in your corner.
It is my experience, that when stuff isn't going my way, that when that bad day comes (as it always does), I forget how richly God has blessed me. I'm not even talking materialistic goods. I'm talking about appreciating the fact I woke up this morning. I'm standing on the right side of the grass. I'm blessed with two beautiful, though trying at time, girls who have amazing hearts. I'm part of a wonderfully supportive and connected family. God has blessed my grandparents with longevity which in turns blesses me and and my girls with a plethora of grandparents that are still physically present on this earth. And God blessed me with a husband who is an amazing provider, a man who gets me (most of the time), who pushes my buttons because he can.
When you look at all of that, it makes the trucker who stopped in the middle of the road and didn't use a turn signal insignificant..
And maybe that is the point of this post.
Sometimes you just need to write out all the things you can be thankful for so you can see in black and white that it isn't as bad of a day as it seems.
Keep on keeping on.
People have been making me angry.
Do you find yourself in a similar situation?
Everything is trucking right along, you feel the wind might be in your sail, the road smoothed out in front of you, and then BAM! Pothole. Turbulent seas.
In these moments it is SO easy to let Satan win. To forget about all of the good in the world around you. To forget that you have the ultimate champion in your corner.
It is my experience, that when stuff isn't going my way, that when that bad day comes (as it always does), I forget how richly God has blessed me. I'm not even talking materialistic goods. I'm talking about appreciating the fact I woke up this morning. I'm standing on the right side of the grass. I'm blessed with two beautiful, though trying at time, girls who have amazing hearts. I'm part of a wonderfully supportive and connected family. God has blessed my grandparents with longevity which in turns blesses me and and my girls with a plethora of grandparents that are still physically present on this earth. And God blessed me with a husband who is an amazing provider, a man who gets me (most of the time), who pushes my buttons because he can.
When you look at all of that, it makes the trucker who stopped in the middle of the road and didn't use a turn signal insignificant..
And maybe that is the point of this post.
Sometimes you just need to write out all the things you can be thankful for so you can see in black and white that it isn't as bad of a day as it seems.
Keep on keeping on.
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