Maybe I'm not

Maybe I'm not relationship material. Maybe my past has completely ruined the chance of finding lifelong companionship for me. I can't let go and trust wholeheartedly, I am normally waiting for the other shoe to drop. Maybe I'm too much like my dad, too much like my mom. Maybe, God isn't done with me yet and has a grand plan for me to find the happiness I seek. Maybe I need to focus on my relationship with God and make him my lifelong companion. He has already made the ultimate sacrifice for me, an undeserving sinner. It can't really get better than that, can it?