Maybe I'm not

Maybe I'm not relationship material. Maybe my past has completely ruined the chance of finding lifelong companionship for me. I can't let go and trust wholeheartedly, I am normally waiting for the other shoe to drop. Maybe I'm too much like my dad, too much like my mom. Maybe, God isn't done with me yet and has a grand plan for me to find the happiness I seek. Maybe I need to focus on my relationship with God and make him my lifelong companion. He has already made the ultimate sacrifice for me, an undeserving sinner. It can't really get better than that, can it?

Co-Existing

*DISCLAIMER: THESE ARE JUST MY OWN PERSONAL VIEWS. I believe in freedom of speech, hate will not be tolerated.* Two arguments I see frequently are Evolution vs Creationism and the definition of marriage. Though I am a Christian, and I believe that God created the world and everything in it, I also believe in evolution. I do not try to make these two beliefs exist simultaneously. I believe in both and both exist in my life. The bigger issue currently is what is the definition of marriage. Should marriage be limited to one man and one woman? I don't believe so. I believe marriage is a union of two people who love each other. The sex of those two people is a moot point. And here is where the real struggle occurs. Recently, my pastor at church has been hitting on the topic that marriage is between one man and one woman. I understand and comprehend that teaching. However, I also believe we cannot judge others. If two women or two men want to join in holy matrimony, they should have that right. God placed those two people together for a reason. Further, this is where I believe separation of church and state should play a role. Isn't this country founded on freedom? The freedom to choose a religion, the freedom to bear arms, shouldn't that freedom extend to choose whom we love and marry? How can our government put a label that marriage should just be between a man and a woman? (To further clarify, my argument is marriage between two people.) Just food for thought today. In general, I believe people have the right to be happy as long as their happiness is not by making others unhappy. I don't believe we have a right to label love or judge others.

Garden planning

I don't know about you, but I'm sick of spending $1 for a single red pepper in December. Seriously, it's a pepper. THIS has been the driving force for me to plan a garden for this summer. I have the space, I have a row of asparagus already, time to fill in some more. So far, I've mainly been researching, trying to decide what to grow, and not getting much of anything done. The list so far: Peppers kale (?) Zucchini Squash green beans (?) Potatoes (?)

Because I'm random at best

I really should get better about posting here on a regular basis, not just once a year. What has occurred in the past year: Bought a house Got a yittle puppy. Got another dog. Started working on my degree again. (Community Health Education is what I'm currently working on.) I've decided to stop doing massages (while I'm going to school and working full-time) as I need more time for me and more time for family. Need to work on a social life/getting out with people with similar interests. Otherwise, everything is as normal as it can be. (AKA: it is always crazy and full of ups and downs) Hoping to plant a garden this year and perhaps revive this blog.

Yoo Hoo!

Hello all! I have a slight free moment and am doing a fast track update.
Things are going well.
Love the new position at the university.
Life took a crazy turn and me and TJ are back together. (TJ is my daughter's dad)
We are looking at houses at the moment, but are undecided on what we really want to do there.
The girl is doing well. She loves school and learning about things.
Reading, science, and history are all fun subjects for her. :D
Otherwise, not a whole lot other than living life.
I go to the gym a lot and have lost over 50lbs in the past year and dropped about 3 sizes.
I enjoy feeling better about myself and feeling healthier in general.
I'm going to start taking courses again as well.

1 of to 1 in

So, life tends to be a roller coaster. Mine tends to involve a roller coaster of emotions. Most days I am hapy just being the awesome that is me. :) Everynow and then,the lonely catches up and hangs around for a few days. :P
Hobby Lobby almost made me cry today. I decided to look at home decor/wall hanging stuffs. Reading all the family makes a home, love is all that matters, etc did a number of my delicate emotional state.
And what's odd isbecause prior to going in, I had been thinking about how I am tired of being 1 of millions. I really want to be that 1 in a million to someone.

I know that person is out there somewhere. I am just impatient. I miss the conversation, being able o just be wrapped in someones arms, miss feeling important to someone.

neglected

This blog has been neglected. I started a new position at wok and it has been busy busy busy.

I also don't have internet or cable at home, which makes it hard to post.
Things are good. Dating sucks, but I'm happy just being me. :)