Sorry for the silence. I've been adjusting to some changes. (And the weather has been nice...not so much the case today)
I miss by baby when she is not with me. The break is nice, don't get me wrong, but I miss hearing and seeing her in the next room.
Things are going.It seems that some things are going slower than I had planned, but I'm adjusting to that as well.
I'm really excited to get into my own place(still don't have a date for that. :( )
I am desperate to stop living out of boxes.
Sorry I don't have more. Things have been slow and boring as of late.
Have a fabulous day!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
Moving is Hazardous
I moved quite a bit of stuff this past weekend. A good friend crossed the river to help me with some furniture moving. (SO THANKFUL!)
In the process of moving stuff, I injured myself. (not badly, but a little)
I busted my lip (only slightly puffy) with a patio chair to the face and bruised my leg (it is currently showing me how red and blue make purple). Not too bad.
Slowly but surely, I am getting stuff moved.
The women's retreat was good. I really enjoyed the time and fellowship and might have to look a little more into doing more things like it.
Big words of wisdom/things that meant a lot to me:
Thank you Jesus for YOUR changes to MY plans.
Stop focusing on what God ISN'T doing, and instead focus on what he IS doing.
Simple thoughts, HUGE meanings. I really am trying to be more positive and focusing on what good fortune I do have, because in the grand scheme of things, my "problems" are miniscule.
AND to put the icing on the positive cake, I finally (after 7 games) won MONOPOLY! So, I'm riding that high at the moment. (yes, I have been beaten more than once at monopoly by a 7 year old)
In conclusion, things are good. I've put a smile on my face, God is awesome, life is good.
In the process of moving stuff, I injured myself. (not badly, but a little)
I busted my lip (only slightly puffy) with a patio chair to the face and bruised my leg (it is currently showing me how red and blue make purple). Not too bad.
Slowly but surely, I am getting stuff moved.
The women's retreat was good. I really enjoyed the time and fellowship and might have to look a little more into doing more things like it.
Big words of wisdom/things that meant a lot to me:
Thank you Jesus for YOUR changes to MY plans.
Stop focusing on what God ISN'T doing, and instead focus on what he IS doing.
Simple thoughts, HUGE meanings. I really am trying to be more positive and focusing on what good fortune I do have, because in the grand scheme of things, my "problems" are miniscule.
AND to put the icing on the positive cake, I finally (after 7 games) won MONOPOLY! So, I'm riding that high at the moment. (yes, I have been beaten more than once at monopoly by a 7 year old)
In conclusion, things are good. I've put a smile on my face, God is awesome, life is good.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Filed
The papers are in the hands of the legal system now. I'm hoping the judge doesn't want more information before signing off on them.
It's a double edged sword. I feel relief because I have one less thing on my plate, but I'm still a little sad and angry with myself. Angry for not trying harder/speaking up earlier, and sad because this sucks.
But I know that I did try to speak up, I did ask for help...in my own way.
And I know tomorrow will be a better day.
I know that I am doing better now than I was then.
So, lets focus on the up. I have a renewal to go to this weekend. One of my best girl friends is going to be in town and I have given myself the weekend off.
That's right, no massages for 3 days in a row!!!!
Plus my appetite is slowly returning.
I still don't eat much, and a lot of the time I'm just forcing myself to eat, but I'm alright.
It's a double edged sword. I feel relief because I have one less thing on my plate, but I'm still a little sad and angry with myself. Angry for not trying harder/speaking up earlier, and sad because this sucks.
But I know that I did try to speak up, I did ask for help...in my own way.
And I know tomorrow will be a better day.
I know that I am doing better now than I was then.
So, lets focus on the up. I have a renewal to go to this weekend. One of my best girl friends is going to be in town and I have given myself the weekend off.
That's right, no massages for 3 days in a row!!!!
Plus my appetite is slowly returning.
I still don't eat much, and a lot of the time I'm just forcing myself to eat, but I'm alright.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Cleaning Up
I look good today.
I dressed to the nines on purpose.
Today is the 3rd anniversary of my 2nd failed marriage.
I do believe I will be going and buying myself something cute on my lunch hour.
I'm also cleaning up a few loose ends. Tomorrow I will officially be DELETING my f-b page. So, if you are here, you're going to hear the meat and potatos of what is going on with me anyway. And who knows, maybe I'll throw a picture in every now and then too.
Still looking for a place to live. Not fun at all.
So, my dear readers, I hope you are rocking it out today as well.
Oh, and stress = lack of appetite.
At this rate I am going to have to buy new clothes. LOL
I dressed to the nines on purpose.
Today is the 3rd anniversary of my 2nd failed marriage.
I do believe I will be going and buying myself something cute on my lunch hour.
I'm also cleaning up a few loose ends. Tomorrow I will officially be DELETING my f-b page. So, if you are here, you're going to hear the meat and potatos of what is going on with me anyway. And who knows, maybe I'll throw a picture in every now and then too.
Still looking for a place to live. Not fun at all.
So, my dear readers, I hope you are rocking it out today as well.
Oh, and stress = lack of appetite.
At this rate I am going to have to buy new clothes. LOL
Monday, March 7, 2011
On the Edge
I feel like I'm on the edge of an anxiety attack.
I want all of this done and over.
Yet, the process is not doing well for my stomach.
I feel like I'm on the edge of a cliff. Like one wrong move and I'm going to tumble over the edge. I know it is because I'm trying to get all the paperwork done and find a place to live.
I need to find somewhere to do yoga again. I need to center myself.
AND I really need to find a place to live. :/
I want all of this done and over.
Yet, the process is not doing well for my stomach.
I feel like I'm on the edge of a cliff. Like one wrong move and I'm going to tumble over the edge. I know it is because I'm trying to get all the paperwork done and find a place to live.
I need to find somewhere to do yoga again. I need to center myself.
AND I really need to find a place to live. :/
Thursday, March 3, 2011
So This is Life
Wow. I can't believe the difference in the way I feel lately.
I seriously feel as though I have emerged from a cloud of depression.
The lack of stress is amazing. I haven't felt this relaxed in a long time.
Even though I'm responsible for melting others stress away, I held on to so much.
I'm loving myself more and more. I don't eat all day long and I feel as though I'm losing weight. It varies from day to (that feeling), but I feel good again.
I'm not trying to blame all of my problems on anyone. A lot was self-inflicted.
I'm looking forward to what God has in store for me. My check was cashed for the Women's Day of Renewal event I'm going to. I'm looking forward to that.
I've been reading Luke this week as well. (I try to read one chapter of the bible every night on the ol' iPad. I look at all the books, pick one, then pick a random chapter)
So things are good. I'm trying to get some stuff taken care of and I need to start moving stuff.
I seriously feel as though I have emerged from a cloud of depression.
The lack of stress is amazing. I haven't felt this relaxed in a long time.
Even though I'm responsible for melting others stress away, I held on to so much.
I'm loving myself more and more. I don't eat all day long and I feel as though I'm losing weight. It varies from day to (that feeling), but I feel good again.
I'm not trying to blame all of my problems on anyone. A lot was self-inflicted.
I'm looking forward to what God has in store for me. My check was cashed for the Women's Day of Renewal event I'm going to. I'm looking forward to that.
I've been reading Luke this week as well. (I try to read one chapter of the bible every night on the ol' iPad. I look at all the books, pick one, then pick a random chapter)
So things are good. I'm trying to get some stuff taken care of and I need to start moving stuff.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Guilty
I've been feeling slightly guilty this week.
I feel absolutely GREAT. I feel so relaxed.
I'm taking care of myself.
I'm not shoving food in my face every 5 minutes.
I'm smiling, laughing, joking, being productive.
My office has been busy this week.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE what I do for others. I love helping others feel good!
Heck, I love meeting new people again!
But every now and then a little voice tells me I shouldn't be happy right now.
I should be sad and mopey and depressed.
But I'm not. And that makes me feel guilty.
Can I just say how much I'm enjoying blogging without reservation? I am truely posting what is in my mind and heart and loving every second of it!
I feel absolutely GREAT. I feel so relaxed.
I'm taking care of myself.
I'm not shoving food in my face every 5 minutes.
I'm smiling, laughing, joking, being productive.
My office has been busy this week.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE what I do for others. I love helping others feel good!
Heck, I love meeting new people again!
But every now and then a little voice tells me I shouldn't be happy right now.
I should be sad and mopey and depressed.
But I'm not. And that makes me feel guilty.
Can I just say how much I'm enjoying blogging without reservation? I am truely posting what is in my mind and heart and loving every second of it!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Sleep
Normally you see posts concerning sleep from new moms.
Even when your babies grow and are seven years old, they still disrupt your sleep...especially when they are bed hogs and you are sharing a full size bed with them.
Needless to say, I haven't been sleeping the best. I get a good night every now and then. But I could use a nap today.
Other things messing with my sleep schedule:
Addiction to Words with Friends and Word fued
Noise from other occupants
Being cold
This week is busy at my office. So I'm not getting home until 8/8:30 and then having to wind down.
Of course by 8:30, it is too late for dinner...So I've been skipping that or eating a cookie for dinner.
No one said it HAD to be healthy!!
I'm doing really well right now. I'm surrounding myself with positive people and things. Today I feel great. I'm enjoying spending time taking care of myself, (I even put lotion on this morning!) and spending time with great friends.
I'm still figuring things out, but things are going alright.
I'm looking forward to spending a weekend with my dear friend and warmer weather.
I'm also thinking of doing a road trip/vacation this summer with my baby depending on gas prices. :D
Even when your babies grow and are seven years old, they still disrupt your sleep...especially when they are bed hogs and you are sharing a full size bed with them.
Needless to say, I haven't been sleeping the best. I get a good night every now and then. But I could use a nap today.
Other things messing with my sleep schedule:
Addiction to Words with Friends and Word fued
Noise from other occupants
Being cold
This week is busy at my office. So I'm not getting home until 8/8:30 and then having to wind down.
Of course by 8:30, it is too late for dinner...So I've been skipping that or eating a cookie for dinner.
No one said it HAD to be healthy!!
I'm doing really well right now. I'm surrounding myself with positive people and things. Today I feel great. I'm enjoying spending time taking care of myself, (I even put lotion on this morning!) and spending time with great friends.
I'm still figuring things out, but things are going alright.
I'm looking forward to spending a weekend with my dear friend and warmer weather.
I'm also thinking of doing a road trip/vacation this summer with my baby depending on gas prices. :D
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