Filed

The papers are in the hands of the legal system now. I'm hoping the judge doesn't want more information before signing off on them.
It's a double edged sword. I feel relief because I have one less thing on my plate, but I'm still a little sad and angry with myself. Angry for not trying harder/speaking up earlier, and sad because this sucks.

But I know that I did try to speak up, I did ask for help...in my own way.
And I know tomorrow will be a better day.
I know that I am doing better now than I was then.

So, lets focus on the up. I have a renewal to go to this weekend. One of my best girl friends is going to be in town and I have given myself the weekend off.
That's right, no massages for 3 days in a row!!!!
Plus my appetite is slowly returning.
I still don't eat much, and a lot of the time I'm just forcing myself to eat, but I'm alright.