Wanting what is bad for you

I think everyone has those moments where you want something that you know is bad for you.
Take the fast food dinner: nutritional value of null, but it is fast...and easy...and edible.


I feel this way about a specific relationship. I keep wanting it, knowing it is bad for me...but it is fast, and easy, and there. No unknowns at all involved. I know what to expect and what not to.

Then there are other things that I think I want, I just don't know if I want them for the right reasons or if, like a new restaurant, I want them because they differ from what I have had before.

All of this leads to mass confusion and at time hysteria. And it is exhausting going through all the scenarios involved in different decisions.

I'm really ready for my life to be settled. I hate all of the upheaval of this transition period. I want to start working on my forever future and contentment.